BadBloodKilljoy

I realized it's time for a new account; there's too much of my old stuff on this one, and I don't feel like simply deleting them. I will keep this one in case I ever decide to publish fanfiction; the other account will be only for drawings and serious writing. If you still want to see more from me, you could follow me there.

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Thank you all <3

The operation went successfully (kind of). I can't say I'm much better now, but at least the meniscus problem is solved. It was painful and exhausting experience and the anesthetic made me act like I was totally high, but it's almost over now. I'm still recovering and in pain and my luck just seems to get worse and worse. :/ My relationship with my boyfriend is the only stable thing I can possibly hold on to right now.

I hope things will get better soon.

Oh god I think I shouldn't have drunk so much beer tonight, but I kinda needed it, you know

I'm going to get my leg operated on Thursday. :/ I tore my meniscus while walking through horrific mud back from a picnic with my parents and some friends. Rain was pouring down like a bitch, and I was doing good, but then I tried to go round a particularly big puddle, when something inside my knee twisted and I fell RIGHT into the puddle; I was screaming in pain, mud all over me, I was soaking wet since I had dropped my umbrella, and yeah. You can imagine it was pretty nasty.

That happened last Saturday and since then I haven't been able to walk normally and step on my left foot properly, because my knee kept being a total arse. I got my leg examined a few times, went to several different doctors and they all agreed that my meniscus was torn. My bones were a bit damaged, too, but they're much better now, almost as if I hadn't hurt them at all.

I'm a bit worried about the surgery. It's not a very serious one, but it's not something to overlook. Has anyone had that kind of problem before? Have you had such operation and if yes, how did it go?

Damn, I hate being helpless, and that's exactly what I am now. I can't go anywhere, I can't do anything. Thank god I have TV series, books, and, well, a boyfriend, otherwise life would bore me to death XD

So yeah...

XO

My birthday was on July the 10th :3 It was a great fun, my party was in the nature, something like a big picnic; if it wasn't for that annoying guy who kept trying to get us to leave, saying that the place was a private propriety (which it wasn't, I had been there at least 10 times before and no one had ever made me pay) I would say it was perfect. There were even benches and tables placed around so we didn't have to sit on the ground. We settled in a big wooden arbour, where we hooked up some balloons

I got lots of presents too, all of them were awesome X3 I got quite a lot of Doctor Who related stuff - a few books from my boyfriend and a badge from my best friend. I also got new pencils, CD's (Queen and 30 Seconds to Mars) and some other stuff. I dare to say it was my best birthday so far, because I didn't celebrate it at home and I had invited more people.

I might post some pictures later. The concert went great as well, I'll write a journal about it tomorrow, I might also submit some photographs.

Also, things are better now; thanks for the support, all of you. I'm sorry about the depressing journal I wrote a week ago. It was just that someone I considered a good friend turned out to be quite hypocritical and selfish and pretty much fucked me up.

But it's okay now. Thanks for the concern, love ya <3

I think the title speaks for itself... I'm sick of people betraying me, it's just so nasty

I hate everything.

But I'll try to be happy, because tomorrow I'm seeing 30STM live.